There is a list of games that is just mentally hard to play that I used to enjoy, I still enjoy but either they are feeling like a waste of my time and / or it brings back hurtful times and bad memories and you can’t make good memories alone.
My mom passed away in July of 2019, she was very close to me and her death was very sudden out of no where.
World of Warcraft:
- Game leads to drama from it’s own communities.
- Friends that I once played with are no longer playing nor care if we roll together anymore Rather it be PvE or PvP. Now I play it, just to grind alone.
- Game changes for the worse for each DLC upgrade (Xpac) they introduce good things and take it away. Over 15 years playing and still I don’t see why I continued on.
- Playing this alone brings memory of my mom on when she would talk to me alot during the solo grinds and I end up crying sooner or later because of this. That is all people do, automatically expect that you grind solo and be done with it and automatically be ready for raids and mythic dungeons. I can’t do it alone anymore I just end up in buckets of tears.
- They removed PvPvE.. and introduced warmode that makes no vital logical sense.
Warframe:
- Another addicting grinding game and with streaming / playing as much as I do I wanted to justify of me keep going by reaching out for partnership now content creator. To have some type of recognition. Because I feel ignored by it’s own community, I feel like playing this game is no longer worth my time.
- The lo-fi hip-hop and the solo grinds while talking to my mom, the lo-fi hiphop was the flow when I got the news of my mom’s sudden passing and since I feel alone in this game already it brings back memories even the most hurtful ones and after a few hours of playing I am crying buckets.
Destiny 2:
- Too much of a grind even for solo. I feel like this is a huge waste of my time and any future money spent.
FF14:
- Another grind game with an excellent story but I feel too alone in this game and I am just not motivated enough to continue on and with no chat to engage to help me move forward I don’t feel like this is worth the time.
FF11:
- Game that used to promote Group + Linkshell (guilds) for fun things, this was a fun game to meet and social with new people but that is now long and gone.
- Sold my account in 2007 over bullshit with my now ex-wife and I regret it since.
- Tried to play again but it’s a barren when it comes to being social and the game just promotes NPC’s as replacements for grinding parties… so this has became Too boring to do all the grind again.
Sea of Thieves:
- Another grind and another time wasted. , placed alot of work this past year to get some dent in partnership, when I met the requirements I was ignored. Yet I am not any different than the current partners that is there.
- Game is fun, it helps get my mind off of current events with my passing of my mom. But I feel like unless I get famous in a different place they will never partner me unless I get the lucky draw of the hat.
- Too much solo time and no chat to engage, so I have better solo games to play
- The Streamer Cliché on Sneaks / Steals with Fort of the Damned, With promoting terrorizing newbie players has already lost it’s cool, especially when you do it soo much already and with even better tactics you would figure would catch an eye but… just like warframe, this community also ignores what I do and doesn’t give a shit either.