Here I am writing another page in my second book and this came to me and I figured it is worth sharing.
There is alot, and I do mean alot of of small things in my life that are actually a lot bigger and with ignorance I took it for granted and should share my experiences. For an example, When Zul’Gurub came out to World of Warcraft, our guild was in the race for who can take down the boss first, On Archimonde at the time and I can’t remember if it was Month’s behind or if I was a part of another guild on the alliance side, I was a feral druid who always had to respec. to restoration because back in these days feral druid was extremely broken and weak during raids and their only use was to back up the priest.
When we failed the fight we found out that the hunter’s pets are still infected with the corrupted blood and decided to unleash them into Iron Forge and did so we ended up watching how badly this started to infect others over and over to a point it was getting bad and it ended up getting so bad it ended up crashing the server as I remember this was a server that was down for over 6 hours because of this incident over a few days. The dead bones were lined up so thick in Iron Forge that it would lag the client side so bad to a point it would crash the client. It was hilarious times but I never knew how important this kind of level was, never would have thought this would be a ground breaking story that would also be a study later on with infectious disease. Learn more about the incident here
So it is amazing such little things in life at least for me can be impacted, so I take a big look back and look at the years I’ve been with LasVegas.net (ISP.Net now) and when my dad tells people that I’ve helped built that ISP from the ground up I normally shrug it off, but in the past few years I’ve been realizing it and he wasn’t wrong.
I would love to give a good positive outlook on how my life turned out, I would love to have reported how highly successful in the ISP being their CISO, being highly influenced leader and giving epic scale talks as if I was Kevin Mitnick.
Sadly, in this timeline of events, I am nowhere near with that level of success. Instead, any talks I get to perform is rejected, I was bullied out of my own Defcon Group 702 I’ve been working on building since 2014 and I am to a point in my career I’m extremely burned out. When I do get to a level of a success in my career path I get pushed down, bulled, and ignored which doesn’t help my burn out feel.
As I was digging through some of my nostalgic code, relearning what I did do and, in this day, and age, A part of me goes: maybe it is a good time to be paid as a black hat, maybe it’s time to dig back to what I did do back in 2000 before I took over the ISP. Learning that a botnet I’ve once developed can be remade and I can go back to finding and hoarding 0days again rebuilding a botnet, this time not to use and flex but to resell on the darknet.
Another part of me says don’t, instead keep focus on building the book and the brand and give it some more time, even though I am about to turn 46, my success is help putting away the ISP’s owner with my book.
Now, what if I was in a different time line and I did get successful with my OG hack and became the ISP’s actual CISO (if you read my book, I’ve played the role in their network as their acting CISO as in a multi-hat role) and recognized as such. I would be doing talks, giving inspiration to keep up the dreams, help give back to the hacker community, my DC702 would have been grounded as I would have been a Kevin Mitnick level of approval on the eyes of the community. I would be able to focus more of building my name even further and wouldn’t have been burned out by the job career.
My second book, is more about my actual resume, my original 0day for the “ssh nuke” before someone else found it and reported it as a POC and somehow ended up on matrix 2…. How I built the botnet and how I took over the ISP to how I helped shaped the ISP to where it is at today. laying down the foundation I’ve reshaped.